February 9, 2013 dVerse

Prompt:  Letting go

 

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The snow has come as predicted

The sun shines too

All is white

Visibility low

 

You have brought up “letting go”

When you know

I am not good at it

I remember

When you left

All was lost

 

 

I would look down

See my hands

Knuckles white

Clenched

Holding on

Even when there was nothing left

 

I had to talk myself through

Open my hands

Turn them over

Nothing to hold on to

Letting go

 

So quickly the snow

Has stopped

Visibility still low

But is expected

Again and again

Like “letting go”

Again and again

 

 

February 9, 2013 Sunday Whirl

Wordle #95

court, rare, open, bathe, plume, coral,
ball, term, bottle, incident, thread, dry
th
(Image from the internet)

Another Day Neil Went Away

There was another incident
Another day he went away
He searched for a place
Where he was not there
Unlike the final time…
There was always the possibility
He would return

I don’t remember the words spoken
Just that he went away…
The hour was late
The bare branches of the winter trees
Traced patterns of lace
Against the plume and coral sky

The court was empty
The jester gone
Packed his bottle
And his ball
Hit the open road
Took his struggle
Out of sight
As was only right

Between then and now
He would not know
A dry day
Unless in jail
Killed himself
In that slow way
People do
Who are
Addicted to the drink

It seemed
He could have bathed
His past away
But he did what he did
And could not have done
Otherwise

He served his term
On earth
A tortured soul
And yet the rare
Treasure he was
He could not see

He followed the thread
That was his own
Surrounded by love
He did not know
Or could not accept
A lonely man indeed

Spring will come
The weather will be warmer
At last
He’ll get his wish
He won’t be there

Note: Today I write again about my friend Neil. With sadness I am thinking of the other times he left. His was a sad story but not unique. There are some things that just can not be fixed. Today I will light a candle for him.